Something new

Been munching on this for the whole day. 

Starting today's blog post with a good and bad news. 

Good news: Just today, or I should say, just now, I discovered something new about myself.

Bad news: It's a new weakness. 

I found out that I'm afraid to answer calls that are made to me accidentally. 

 Just now, it happened. And the scenario was so familiar. 

Suddenly, I was reminded for something I never would want to recall.

Something exactly the same happened 6 months ago. 

Fear, uncertainty, anxiety,insecurity. All these gushed in instantly. 

Totally in a screwed-up mood currently .

The effort of munching my m&ms which kept me happy for the whole day just went down the drain , not a single bit was left. 

I'm so afraid now. 

I feel like just not think about anything and go to sleep right away.

But I couldn't... 

I had a quite severe headache in the late afternoon and on my way back home. 

But got much much better after drinking a glass of honey water ♥♥♥

 Have I not yet gotten over the trauma completely?