Dropped no tears

 One morning, this boy brought me LaoBan. 
He's really nice :)

Ate it immediately after getting down the bus that was stuck in the superduper heavy traffic jam. 

It took us 1 hour plus to reach !!

 Zzzzzzour lemonade! 

 My brother made this spongecake during his F&N lesson.

Surprisingly nice! HAHAHA

Bryant's coin pouch haha 

so kewwwwwt.

Today, I went back to these places alone.  

 And this was my first stop.

 Can you feel the heat just by looking at this photo?

It's really no joke.

 Accompanied by the scorching Sun, warm breeze, music, my shadow and the fallen leaves.

 Spotted this on a random bench. 

 Next stop, the familiar yet, no-longer-the-same basketball court.

 Last stop. 

 No matter how hard I try to find, it's no longer there... 

I even searched the other levels even though I'm very sure it can never be there. How stupid.

 If only these stairs could bring me to where I wanna be.

 From the first to the last stop, I did not take any transport. 

Pretty flowers. There were so many of them!

Today's lesson ended at 11am because there's no more BStats Lecture. Headed home after lunch and was in a rather foul mood. I totally have no idea why but recently I've been experiencing severe moodswings. You can say that it's an excuse. Maybe I have changed. You can say that I am unreasonable, selfish, inconsiderate, petty. I'm not going to deny it. No one knows how scared I am. I'm scared that I will get influenced  by some people(those that I dislike or think has bad habits). I don't even know what kind of person I am now. 

So, I alighted at this stop and started my short journey. (last minute decision) Crossed three traffics and wondered if I would get knocked down. Wasn't really in a clear mind then because I slept in the bus. 

It was a special (?) feeling to go back to all these places alone. I knew I said this SO MANY times but I REALLY wish to turn back time. Things are no longer the same. When everyone is too busy for me, I have to be independent. 

Inside me, is a battle between the heart and mind. 

I really hate this, and this feeling. 

Feel like pushing everybody away. 

Just stay away from me as far as you can. 

Don't want to go school. 

Don't want to go anywhere.

Don't want to see anybody.

Want to be alone. 

Hearts and Tarts

Haylooooo, it's Sunday again! This week has been another busy one but better than the previous, in my opinion :) 

Maec project is done which means one burden is down! But there are still a couple of projects that are yet to be completed :( I really hope the torture would end soon. I really dislike projects! 
All the researching, brainstorming and typing of the disgustingly wordy report, I can't wait to say goodbye to them!

Oh, now that I remember why this week is more relaxing already it's because there's no DSS class haha. This week is DSS e-learning week so no tutorial nor workshop! Blur me actually forgot about it and came school early in the morning on Monday :/ When I could have slept 2 hours more.... wasted. 

Had Idea Jumpstart Challenge! This thing took me friggin 6 hours!! Luckily our teacher allow us to leave after we completed our work so we got to go off earlier than the rest hehe. 

 And this was the idea we come up with~

 An exaggerated size card named the Care Compassion Card! haha

Last IJ class... Mixed feelings :/ 

Glad to know these people and 

would love to see them around in school!

Okay, guess that's about it for the boring weekdays. Let's talk about some fun stuffs! And of course, the fun category always (most of the time) falls under the weekends! 

Saturday, which is yesterday, was mommy's birthday! Bought a mini massager and drew a card for her ^^ Had dinner and went for a night-grocery shopping haha. Bought a lot of snacks! 
In the afternoon, I met yz at AMK and we actually spent more than an hour in Fairprice Extra!! Looking for healthy snacks etc. LOL And almost all the stuffs that I aimed for were bought in the evening with mommy :P hehehehehe. 

And here's a picture of the cake :)

Super love it because it has LOTS of fruits!

I just cannot resist fruits :(

Did you hear that? FAT is calling me...

Today, I went for a nice morning jog and then headed to town with mommy and my brother. Bought new year clothes for my brother and for myself, a new bag and pair of shoes. Met the guys at cineleisure after that and shopped till late afternoon or early evening. Walked ALOT today.

 Healthy breakfast made by me after returning from da refreshing jog! Prepared for mommy too! 

And I shall end off with this SUPER LARGE photo of Nicole and Yize after Thurday's Muaythai training! hahaha Did you spot the joke? :P 

Learn to be yourself, 

cuz' you are special in your own way, 

not a reflection of the others.

A short one

So, I'm here to blog again... when I should be doing my projects and tutorials. Sigh. I wanna leave here so much. I'm getting so tired. 

Evident 1: Slept in the shuttle bus this morning. Totally have no idea that we've reached school until the Uncle came over and woke us up :/ *so embarrassing!!!*

Evident 2: I was sitting right in front of my tutor during lesson and I was trying my best to fight the sleepy ghost in me. (Still dozed off a few times though) 

Evident 3: Slept on the bus on my way home too... throughout the whole ride.

And I'm still tired. While I was walking home, I suddenly feel like going back msia alone.. to find my grandfather. To escape from this city life, this stressful and fake place. 

To be honest, I don't mind staying there forever, even though it's a kampong. I don't mind the fact that there's no computer over there. I don't mind the fact that transport service is poorly provided or the not very well developed environment and such. It's so much better than here. The only thing I would miss over here, would be friends I guess. 

This then lead me to think how I used to spend my times there. How my grandparents used to take care of me since I was baby until now, one of them is no longer with me. I miss her so much.. I really do. It feels so unreal that she has passed away for more than 3 years already when all the memories I had with her are still so fresh and clear. And then regrets start flooding in. Before I knew, my vision is blurred by my tears. How I wish I can see her again. Even if she can just appear in my dream once in a while. That would be enough...

Appreciate while you have it.

Hasty life

I really wish to say that 2013 started off wonderfully, fabulously, amazingly etc. but.... NOT AT ALL. :( It's totally not what I've expected. I forgot how many times I actually suffered from a mental breakdown. 

These two weeks were really busy, tiring and 24 hours a day just don't seem enough! Andand, this torture hasn't ended... 

I really wish this semester would quickly come to an end. YET, I'm not looking forward to the next semester also LOL. I'm ONLY looking forward to the holiday!!! 

The reason why I'm suffocating like this is because the project deadlines are all bloody hell near to one another x.x Putting the projects and tutorials (which mostly are still undone yet) aside, the Finals are coming in like.. less than one month?! 

*WHAAAAAAAAT ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I HAVE NOT EVEN STARTED MY REVISION YET.* 

And yes, I mean I have not started any at all. Not to mention other modules like BMGT and OB etc. are also tested (unlike common test which we are only tested on like.. 3 modules?) 

So, good luck to me yo~

Projects are really depressing for me because I think I can't work well with my group members. Or rather, we are just from a totally different category kind of people. Besides that, I think we lack of communication too... 

Sad thing about being a poly student: Finals during the Chinese New Year period. 

WTSSSSS?? This is my FIRST time not looking forward to CNY. Imagine other people collecting angbaos, eating good food, gambling blahblahblah. And WE, are busy STUDYING. How terrible can this get. 

Okay now, let's put aside all those shits. 

Well, there are still bits and pieces of happy and fun things that happened to me in Poly since classes started :) 

First, during the two weeks of short break, Michelle went Hokkaido and Shanghai. Although she did not bring us back the "snow" or water from Hokkaido as she promised, she brought us these little sweet things. Hehehehehe. Honestly, I would choose this rather than the inedible snow. ^^

  

Sweets! The orange packaging one is Rock Melon flavor, while the white one is Milk. Like both!! Hehe

Rabbit sweets and a biscuit that tastes heavenly :')

Secondly, NP open house. There were so many people on the second day that there were both traffic and human jam. The bus stop at NP was so crowded we have to walk down to SIM and one stop more to squeeze in the freaking bus. The traffic jam caused the ride to last for an hour plus. Luckily, we found seats. If not, I really can't imagine how black my face would have turned to. 

 My fingers look fatter than usual here. haha

 Is this the reason? I think so... LOL

Tadah!! Honeystars and Fruitloops! 

My two favorite cereals in one ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

And lastly.... I rebonded my hair :) It looks so unnaturally straight now :/ 

That's all for my post. Goodbye~

There are things that I wish,

 they will remain the same forever. 

common tests preparation plus two weeks break

 When lectures get too boring.I believe I'm not the only one who does this. Haha

 Above are the breakfasts of mine when I stayed at home for a consecutive 2-3 days alone, mugging for common tests while my parents and brother went Genting.  

***************End of Common Test*****************

Had 2 days of good rest at home and then

IT'S TIME TO HAVE FUN!! ^^v

A short, yet meaningful meet-up.

Met soulmate and we headed to town and bugis to buy our stuffs.

After that, we went SSC and Fangqi joined us for lunch at JustAcia.

My Favourite: Free flow of Ice-Cream!!! hehehe

 Browsing the menu.

 Taking photos is a must since 

we hardly get to see each other already :(

 Fangqi! It's been SO long since I met her. 

She's getting prettier and I swear She's SUPER tall.

AND, she's still growing.

P.S: She has already hit 170cm.

 Hope we can have another meet-up soon! 

I can only be myself when I'm with my Secondary school friends.

Who can understand me?

 ♥ I missed her laughter, like real. 

It's just contagious. 

I forgot when's the last time I actually laughed like mad.

 Isn't my soulmate cute? hehe. 

 Bad point: her face machiam copy&paste LOL.

(Are you reading this? hahaha)

 So after a super full meal, 

we went daiso! 

As it's christmas season, 

there were full of christmas decorations and cute hairbands.

*SnapSnap* 

 The first thing she did when she saw the Santa hat. 

Hat:"Wear me now!!!"

 Compared to the Santa hat,

I'm more interested in the giant sock hehe. 

It's just too cute!

 "Imma Reindeer~" HAHAHA.

 Looking for some wet tissues?(for baby one!)

 Attempted to take a sneakpic of her but failed

so she posed for me to take one LOL. 

I got such an understanding soulmate. HAHAHA

Hey girl, it's Christmas.

not Easter~ 

17th - 20th December 2012.                                                                                    4 Days 3 Nights of Chalet with my dear friends.

I miss them so much. 

Time zooms when we're having fun :'( 

I have no photos because I barely touched my phone for the 4 days. 

My phone battery lasted for 4 days without me charging it LOL. 

Definitely looking forward to the next chalet!! 

But firstly, good luck to all JC people who are taking their A level this year! 

Summary of what we did during the chalet : 

1st day - free and easy. Watched TV shows (some movie about the end of the world).

2nd day - Games!! Managed to do the first few activities planned by us, the Game Planners (Yangjin, Chuting, Kailin and me). But it rained after that so we changed to our wet weather games... which kinda failed. Instead, we played the Drinking Game. First time playing it and it was super fun and funny! 

3rd day - free and easy for the whole day haha. As for me, I played 2 rounds of Mahjong and then it's Barbeque time!! The food is nice and glad that it was all finished! No food wasted (Y).

4th day - Funny ghost story-telling by Jing Hui early in the morning hahaha. Checked out at 10am and ended our day with the movie, CZ12 (starred and directed by Jackie Chan). It was totally awesome!!! Highly recommended :D 

Christmas Cookies Baking Session with Qian ♥♥♥

My first time trying to bake and it came out unexpectedly good!! 

At least I'm very satisfied :P 

The baking session started immediately the day after chalet hahaha.

Making sure I don't waste my 2 weeks break.

 Our first batch of cookies! :')

 Met the guys after baking to have the last dinner with Steven before he returns to Indonesia.

Hei Sushi!! 

It's forever impossible to take a photo of his face. 

This is the best I can get... SIGH. #fail

 2nd day of baking session because we didn't manage to finish baking all the previous day. 

These icings were 100% made by me!! *proud* #colourful

 I have no idea baking is that fun and interesting! 

I would really like to bake again. 

If only I got my own oven, I would spend my free time baking away~ hehe.

 Log Cake by Aunty Kim Choo! 

She's the best baker (Y)

Christmas Eve 24/12/2012

Christmas Eve at yz's grandma's house! 

Really need to thank his xiao gu for preparing so much nice food for us! 

Spent our day gambling HAHA. 

Spaghetti made by Mommy and I on a random Sunday! ♥ 

Toast w Bacon + ketchup and cherry tomato. 

Like to make my own breakfast.

It's the only meal I can handle anyway :( 

One of my favourite cereals! Fruit loops~ 

Another random day, random breakfast. 

I like toasts!  

 One windy night.

A sudden meet-up to enjoy the beautiful and cooling night.

We can never finish telling our stories and that's my favourite part. 

Spammed photos! 

This girl keep saying she looks like a gho...st 

The train!! 

But it's too far away for me to snap a better shot.

Excuse? HAHAHA. 

The moon seemed to be in a pretty good mood that night too ^^ 

And yes, she said that again... 

Pretty lights.

 Enen's House Visit!

Went Punggol and managed to figure out the way from MRT station to his doorstep.  YAY!

The truth is...

my mum forced us to because she said she wants to give them a surprise? LOL.

And yup, she did it HAHAHA.

Cozy living room ☺ 

The balcony. 

Enen! ♥♥♥ 

Grapes and cherries we bought! Sweeeeet ^^ 

We played UNO cards (and I lost to him...) 

And then we played this colourful blocks thingy game! 

(I forgot the name) 

His stuff toys.

He got more stuff toys than me! 

Angry Bird is angryyyyyy. HAHA 

"I'm going to win this time round also!" 

*collapse*

Me: YAYYYYYY! HAHAHA 

Who cares who's the winner.

So long as both of us know we had fun and are finally spending some time with each other :') 

Fairy and a Rabbit. 

Retail therapy with mommy. 

Wasn't in a pleasant mood on the previous day. 

Countdown celebration for the New Year, 2013

The last day of 2012 was spent at Yz's grandma house! 

Had so much fun and ate so much food!! 

There's NO food his aunt made that's not nice, seriously. 

Ate like a pig over there *so embarrassing* HAHAHAHAHA.

Returned home at 2am plus!! 

She's so kind to send each and everyone of us home. 

Not forgetting the epic scenario whereby 6 of us squeezed at the back seats of the car. LOL

Last day.

And my last day of this short break was spent at home.

Cream style Corn w Mushroom soup. Yummmmm. 

First day of School.

First day of school did not start really well but the ending was Greatttt! *thumbs up!*

 Infinite chair spotted! *inspirits*

 Finally satisfied my craving. FINALLYYYYYYYY.

And yz ordered this. YUMMEH!!

We cleared them all. 

Except the leftover butter and stem of the tomatoes.

Oh?! we left something behind!

It's our bees!!! HAHAHA 

A day to remember  ♥

Before leaving, the cartoon us drew Spongebob, Patrick and Gary(spongebob's pet snail). But I did not take a photo of them... They are so artistically drawn, I swear. *winks*

-END- 

Our story will go on and on.