怀念

最近的日子都过得好无聊~

如果是以前，都会好期待放假

总觉得暑假都好短，一下子就过去了

可是这次的暑假 不知道为什么 感觉好漫长~

每天在家里无所事事

朋友们都找到了假期工

各忙各的...

可以约出门的也没几个

我也好像快点找到工作哦~

这样一来，可以赚钱又可以打发时间又可以累积经验...

可是同时，我又好害怕 好担心

不知道打工时会不会闯祸？遇到严厉批评会不会面对？

担心会给别人带来困扰或麻烦

希望一切可以顺利！

神啊，保佑我吧~

P.S. : I MISS 4F SOOOOOOOOO MUCH !!!

救我

痛苦 是现在唯一能形容我现在的感受

难过和无奈 是我现在的心情

因为不知道该怎么面对，解决问题 让我感到不知所措

我慌了

而唯一能让我把自己的想法和痛苦发泄出来的地方 只有这里...

或许...

只要把所有的错怪在自己身上 就不会那么痛苦了？

把错推到别人身上让我觉得自己好邪恶

觉得自己邪恶，我会很厌恶自己

还是... 我本来就是这样？

都是我的错吗...?

对不起

窒息

是因为不信任吧？

因为不信任我，才会一直希望每分每秒都在我身边盯着我

因为不信任，所以才会让我觉得被束缚

才会让我觉得有那么一点点厌烦

该继续忍下去吗？

没有信任 又要怎样继续？

没有信任 还会幸福吗？

总以为你会改变...

原来并没有。

是我在顺从...

当然不只是我

我相信你也曾努力过

相信你是因为某些原因... 才会一直那么的不安

我也想让你对我感到放心 可是...

我真的不知道要怎么做

明明没有做错事 却让我感觉像个犯人

好辛苦 好厌恶这种感觉

真的真的...

为什么要逼我...

为什么...

成长吧

人，真的很矛盾

当拥有的时候不懂得珍惜，

失去后才后悔，想弥补

可是，现实始终是残忍的

有些东西失去了就是失去了，

无论你再怎么想尽办法也找不回来了

即使感到有多抱歉，

有些事就是控制不了

而当这种情况发生时，

我们只能说

这是命运的安排

未来的事变化莫测，

谁也无法预料

有些感觉随着时间而增加；

有些感觉随着时间而淡化

矛盾...

这或许是人在成长过程必须经历的，

也许是种磨练，

让人学会变得更坚强，更勇敢

天天告诉自己，

我不脆弱，我很坚强；

我不害怕，我很勇敢；

我不伤心，我很快乐

只要肯相信，一切都会是真的

只要问心无愧，

做好事；说好话；存好心

Hello :)

Hmmm, here to wish everyone a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!

Although i think i'm only looking forward for 6th and 12th Feb :P

Coz we're going mrs tan's and mr ang's house! *hearts*

-red packets red packets- Hehes x)

Today's concert in school was quite a success ^^

Was totally high all-the-wayyy LOL

After that went Mac with Lau, Val , FQ and SX :)

Enjoyed :D

Hope it's not going to be a sian-day tomorrow x.x pleaseee .

Byebye.

Weird weird weird.

lazy to put the 'f' picture :/

Forever .





Hi (:

Suppose to study hard today! T^T

end up... Haiz...

Nevermind ~

Later do later do :X


I REALLY LOVE DERRICK HOH WEI JIAN ALOT ALOT NOW!!!


(For chinese singer lah ^^ esp he's singaporean!must support mah xD so hae,dont jealous k? hee)

Ytd had dinner with lyq,val.T,df,yx,gaines,nabil at mac (:

nice nice :D

btw, i owe yx $10 -.-

coz im a filial girl who borrow $ from friend to da bao for my parents LOL

One day of the weekend just liddat gone le~~~ T^T

why sooo fast !?!?!?!?

very sad sia ):

plus still got alot upcoming tests ...

seriously don't know whether i should love or hate sec 4 life -_-

at least, i don't think i'm liking the beginning... (:

Byebye.
getting worse and worse.
what's this?

dread tmr ):

Everything .





Hi (:

God, i'm so into derrick ho wei jian now !

*hearts* he's so shuai ! Hehe.

and i like his voice and his style of 咬字 ^^

Had dance practice for the last 3 days! :D

wed had rehearsal for CCA Carnival x)

thurs was practising yog and abit practising of syf *hearts*

friday got another rehearsal and practised syf abit :)

Saturday is the big day!!! CCA Carnival ! Haha

Performance was quite a success xD

After that went to the booth! *hearts*

Fun fun ^^

was sooo crazy like keep shouting "JOIN DANCE ! :D "

HAHAHA :P

and the most pek chek thing is


WHENEVER WE WANTED TO PLAY OUR MUSIC AND DANCE,



THE OTHER CCA WOULD START PLAYING THEIR INSTRUMENTS LOUDLY TOO -.-


like wth ? we can't even hear our music luh ):

how dance ?!? T^T

screwed dance ._.

but well, our stunts still caught some attention xP


THANKS ALPHA OMEGA ! Hehehe ^^


anyway,after dance went lunch with sam,firdaus,techin,nicholas and clement :)

supposedly,ron is coming with us.

but he's late for he's appointment so ... :)

Had BBQ Chicken ! =9

Niceeeeeeeee HEHEHE

especially we can eat while watching all the kpop MVs xD

My dearest Weiming came awhile after that ^^

I fed him a fries ! Hahaha.

and i'm so so happy -.- LOL

after eating full till like dono wat went to find Yize ziwei they all at long john silver x)

Asked peter some questions again ._.

It's so so scary !

Andand i bet fido is really scared too :/

after that the guys went woodland bball while i meet my parents then homed :)


I WILL NEVER SKIP PROPER WARM UP AGAIN ):


my whole body aches now T^T

Seriously.

I did my homework ! so so proud of myself ^^ Hehe

I gonna be sad tmr ):

coz I hate tmr ):

I really duwan tmr to come ):

Got a feeling that it would be a bad day ...

wish me luck ._.

Byebye.
i may look fine alr,
but my heart still hurts .

Byebye holiday .

Dance .

Hi (:

TMR IS SCHOOL REOPEN !

i swear i'm going to enjoy today ):

but no events.

i think maybe START to do abit of hw -.-

Really really no mood.

i don't think i will like tmr.

Sigh ...

i only miss dance .

miss dance alot alot alot T^T

FullStop .

i still can't forget you.

memories just keep flooding my mind .

enjoyed (:

Chance .

Annyeong (:

an unexpected day with my family !

Went swimming (OMG) LOL.

it's been more than 10 yrs(?) since we went swimming as a family ._.

as in everyone goes in the water and swim x)

really enjoyable and memorable ^^

and the most crazy thing is i actually wore my swimsuit !

which is like i haven't wear since ... pri 6? haha.

anyway, de-proved ALOT like kns -.-

my parents keep nagging say i very lousy liao ):

i have to admit seriously.

andand, my mother ask me to go swimming every week from now on ._.

the problem is I CAN'T FIND PPL ACCOMPANY ME -_-

like, it's so weird going swimming alone ):

so no fun T^T

i can't wait to see teachers' jiaobin when they know that i nvr doany of their work ! HAHAHA.

crazy me.

Byebye.
i find myself so different.
i don't even know who i am now .

2011 ):

Beautiful .

Hi (:

1st day of 2011.

SSS Day -.-

Slack, Suck and Sad Day ):

I seriously don't like 2011.

I MISS 2010 TTM.

Guess i'll emo on the 1st day of school.

Just wait and see ._. LOL

Byebye.
it still hurts...here.