Grey, is the colour

Feeling terrible today. Since I received that call in the morning I've been having a bad intuition. And true enough, today totally sucks. It's probably the worst saturday I had. 

I hate myself so much. How can a person hate him or herself so much. To the extent I feel like smashing the mirror when I see my own reflection. 

I don't deserve him. 

我说的每一句想你，爱你

都是发自内心的.

但是我想，

我太认真了

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I'm so glad to say, today isn't THAT bad after all :')  At least, I think the ending for my story today is a genuinely sweet one ♥