Christmas Eve

This is just another 24th december to me. It's funny that I actually anticipated it a few weeks ago. How can I forget, I was never fated to greet this festive season with a smile. I'm so sorry, En. I'm sorry for letting you wait. Sorry for disappointing you. Sorry for being late. I'm so sorry. I can't do anything. 

Munch munch munch...

Currently munching on my fruitloops because there's nothing else to please my foreverfindingfoodtoeat-mouth. Been snacking a lot (more than usual) recently and often have random cravings which were ALL not satisfied :( Which is a good and bad thing. 

Had a mini celebration for this lovely birthday girl during the break of BMGT class today because she did not meet us before the lesson.  IT WAS SO AWKWARD but funny at the same time haha! Hope she had a good day and stays nice and healthy always~ She's a really nice friend who always help me with my work and teaches me patiently. Thank you, xx. 

Time past so fast and today is the last day of lesson for this term! It seemed like we just had our long holiday not long ago but the reality is... Common test is next week!! Started my revision for Bstats and Maec. Took a look at the calendar yesterday and realise I have not much time after the 2 weeks break to study for the final exam! *STRESSED!* 

I really want and need a good break badly. Don't think there would be time to rest properly for the two weeks break as there are still several on-going projects. Sigh.  

Okay, I shall not think so far yet. For now, common tests are more important. But since it's already so late, I shall revise tomorrow and rest well tonight. 

Goodnight! 

I hope I will do well.

I do I doooooooooo

I'm here blogging while watching some korean drama on channel U. It's the last episode already and I think this show is quite nice even though I missed out some episodes here and there haha. The male actors and actresses are not especially good-looking nor pretty but they have a kind of charisma and remarkable acting skills which kept me watching. Andand! 

 I LOVE HAPPY ENDINGS ♥

Although happy endings may not exist in real world, just being able to watch or imagine it makes me happy.

Finally had yz's phone completely repaired today! Looking as good as new. After paying a total of 150 bucks :/ 

I'm so tired right now!! But I cannot sleep yet because I still needa prepare for my DSS group presentation tomorrow. I'm so worried and nervousss now. 

Ohya, I had my OB group presentation today and I guess it was fine.....? I think our group's presentation was too short though, as compared to the others.

Okay, show ended. Gotta bathe and start study. Bye! ☺

Have a little faith.

I'm the cause of the trouble

Today is a bad day for me, everything I did is wrong. Not to mention that I didn't contribute in anything, instead, I created even more troubles for the people around me. 

I'm suppose to attend a KCC event today with jinteng but back out last minute because I really don't feel like going. First time (if i'm not wrong) I was so determined, I have no idea how many "please-s" of hers I rejected today. Every "no" I said to her make me feel so guilty.

After lecture, headed to meet yz for lunch! AND THAT'S WHEN THE MISFORTUNE HAPPENED. 

I wanted to tell him something urgently and I was so excited I shook his hands so hard without realising that he was holding onto his phone and ......  

his phone dropped and the screen cracked. 

The crack was so serious I swear. The next thing I knew is, tears start to flow out uncontrollably. I know that's useless and crying won't fix the screen but I just couldn't hold my tears back.

Although he keeps telling me it's okay but I know that he's still very upset about it. Which makes me feel worse. I have no idea how many "sorry-s" I've said to him today. Today is probably the day I've said the most sorry-s. 

Travelled all the way to Sim Lim Square to repair his phone and it cost $120 $.$ Tomorrow need to find the person again to fix the mic :/ Hope it won't take up too much time so that yz can go home earlier to study for his bapp test and prepare for his presentation as well. 

Praying hard that after today, all the bad luck would go away. 

When can you stop creating troubles and start contributing?

Just sad.

I don't want to study anymore. I really want to put down everything here and leave. To somewhere far. It's so stressful here. I want to live my life happily and I want freedom. Sadly, this will never happen unless there's miracle. The most I can do is, to dream.  

:( Bye. 

Little things make a big difference

Soooooo, I find my previous post sounded too pessimistic and decide to post a more joyous one (; 

As I mentioned earlier that I'll be having lunch with the guys, the lunch was cancelled LOL. I was totally -siannnnn- upon hearing that and I thought today would be a bad saturday for me. I insisted on not staying at home and study outside. And...............

 I ended up at nex with yz HAHA. Lunched at rockery *regrets* The food is utterly disappointing :( Well, shouldn't expect much at the first place when we noticed the number of customers that were there.

After that we went to tea dot for a nice frappe :') I just love frappes, nothing can stop me from drinking them. Not even....... hahahahaha *catch the hint* I shall not say. PLANNED to study there but the table is way too small! 

Finally gave up squeezing at the small table and went to yz's grandma house instead!! Made her aunt fetch us from Nex due to the heavy rain :x It's been long since I saw money!!! She's still as cute though! :D

PLANNED to dinner outside but yz's aunt cooked for us instead !! The home-made fish&co standard fishn'chips ^^ It's so funnily amazing that everything just keep going against yz's diet plan. 

Rewind: Earlier while we were still wondering what to eat for lunch, we saw this promotion outside Long John Silver and almost surrendered to the temptation LOL But yz is was determined not to eat the fried food. 

After dinner, both of us walked to Nex because I PLANNED to get something from the popular and artbox. Didn't buy anything in the end LOL. 

Moral of the story for today ↓ 

Things may not happen as what you planned they would.

The first mt training on thurs was fun yet not fun. Probably because it's my first time, I was so stressed up. Hope everything'd be better during the next training :)

That's all for today. I'm so tired + sleepy yet I need to study.

How I wish I got more time. 

Good Morning

An early post for today because I don't feel like doing anything right now. SIGH this is really bad because I NEED TO STUDY. Common test is just next next week :( But I couldn't find my mood to study recently I don't know why. Been feeling frustrated and getting impatient easily these couple of days. Really moody and I don't like it, not like it's making me feel good urgh. I think I'm starting to think too much AGAIN. Kill me please, gosh. 

HEY BRAIN, NOW IS NOT THE RIGHT TIME. THERE'S NEVER GONNA BE A RIGHT TIME TO THINK TOO MUCH YEAH? BUT IF YOU HAVE TO, PLEASE WAIT TILL COMMON TESTS ARE OVER. THANKYOU.  

LOL. I'm actually hoping that this will work? I must be desperate. Besides common tests, there are also presentations next week !! I'm really bad at talking, especially formally. Pray hard I won't stammer, which is highly possible that I would. 

May be going out for lunch with the guys later on because zw is flying to KOREA!!! *OBVIOUSLY JEALOUS* When will I ever have a chance? :'( 

I've no idea why I don't feel like going out today. I feel like spending my whole day in bed. But apparently, I can't. Alright, gonna do my chores now. 

Have a great weekend ☺

Something is just not right,

what's wrong with me?