If only life is like a video,when you can forward the bad times and pause/stop at the good times. It is impossible unless i have a Doraemon hahaha. Read my posts in the past and I couldn't stop laughing! Never knew that I used to be so childish and immature, the way I think and type. When I scroll even further, I can't even remember I have actually posted anything like that (2008-2009) It's so embarrassing that I deleted some of the posts. Time is really powerful. The sorrow I used to experience in the past, the complaints and so on,I sound like someone who has lost hope in life and if I remembered clearly, the thought of committing suicide even flashed through my mind a couple of times. Fortunately, I didn't. I'm still good here, accompanied by my love ones. All the bad times would go away. It's just a matter of how long it's going to take. I just have to pull through those times. Also, I'm thankful to all the people who are always there by my side,offering hugs and tissues. There's one thing I guess I can never learn no matter how hard I try after much failures : Letting go. Till now, I am still missing 4F hell lot even though I have made some friends in poly. Everytime we have gatherings, the same question would always pop up in my mind : When would be the next time for us to meet again and have fun like this? six months later? 1 year later? 2 years later? or never again? I never failed to cry during every meetups and that is so annoying. I really don't like it. Okay, I shall a set an aim for myself : Not to drop a single tears for the next get-together. Hope there will be one. Everyone is moving on, why it seems like I am the only one who's stuck at the same point? People enters and leaves your life. Appreciate what you have now.
“爱情里没有背叛不背叛，只不过缘分用完就该离开”
I think this also applies to every single person in one's life. Not only in relationships. I became worried, flustered, fearful whenever I think someone got a significant position and plays a very important role in my life. It gives me feeling of I-can't-do-without-them. This is when I know I've become (very) reliant on them. Which I dislike, as I foresee myself to struggle when it's time for them to leave.
Had grocery shopping with my mum after brunch and she says 我变瘦了 !
Don't know whether it's true or not but I'm still over the moon to hear that. Hahaha
Can't wait for the holidays to come. There's so much I wanna do!
I wanna make a list of things-to-accomplish for my holidays.
Jog, swim, badminton, shoppings and meetups with my dear friends ^^
Guess the only thing that I dread about holiday is work ._.
Yes, back to a telemarketer :/ I'm a boring person.
Hope I'll pull through it.... for the sake of $$$ LOL.
It's raining here now.
HowIwishIcanturntheraindropsintoflowerybanknotes
Hahahahaha. Yes, continue dreaming Jingyi :)
Gonna do those sickening POA past year papers now!
Annyeong.
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