Evident 1: Slept in the shuttle bus this morning. Totally have no idea that we've reached school until the Uncle came over and woke us up :/ *so embarrassing!!!*
Evident 2: I was sitting right in front of my tutor during lesson and I was trying my best to fight the sleepy ghost in me. (Still dozed off a few times though)
Evident 3: Slept on the bus on my way home too... throughout the whole ride.
And I'm still tired. While I was walking home, I suddenly feel like going back msia alone.. to find my grandfather. To escape from this city life, this stressful and fake place.
To be honest, I don't mind staying there forever, even though it's a kampong. I don't mind the fact that there's no computer over there. I don't mind the fact that transport service is poorly provided or the not very well developed environment and such. It's so much better than here. The only thing I would miss over here, would be friends I guess.
This then lead me to think how I used to spend my times there. How my grandparents used to take care of me since I was baby until now, one of them is no longer with me. I miss her so much.. I really do. It feels so unreal that she has passed away for more than 3 years already when all the memories I had with her are still so fresh and clear. And then regrets start flooding in. Before I knew, my vision is blurred by my tears. How I wish I can see her again. Even if she can just appear in my dream once in a while. That would be enough...
Appreciate while you have it.
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