Life and Death is just one line between

Today, 12 February 2013, 3rd day of Lunar New Year, the President or I should say, the ex-president of NP muaythai fighting club, Nigel,  left this world. I'm sure all muaythai peeps must be feeling very very sad upon hearing this news. Strangely, not being very close with him, I'm very affected too when yz informed me about it. My impression of him is a very muscular and healthy guy who likes to crack jokes with his muaythai people but gets serious when it comes to training. His passion for muaythai is obvious enough for anyone to see. It's hard to believe such a big guy would bid goodbye to all of us at such a young age. (He's only 20?) It is also very sudden as he wasn't suffering from any illness (from what I know).

Yz and his muaythai friends will be attending Nigel's wake tomorrow in the evening. I really really wanted to go as well, but my mum doesn't allow because it's chinese new year period now and I'm having my first paper tomorrow. Although I'm not close with Nigel at all, I feel like I'm quite familiar with him. I guess that's because yz always mention about him when we are together. He's like a role model to yz? I'm not sure if that's the right word to use but he gives me the feeling of that, that he wants to be like him. Yz always tells me how Nigel this how Nigel that. And yes, I can see that he's very affected by this. My heart pains when I got the news about Nigel's death, but got worse when I think of yz.

I don't know how to describe this feeling. Probably it's because all the things I know about Nigel are told by yz. A person he admire, as a senior, as a muaythai president, as a friend.. just left like that. I cannot even do a thing. I have no idea what to do in such situation. I don't know what to say. It's just wrong/weird to say "cheerup" or "don't sad" or "smile".
 "HOW THE HELL DO YOU EXPECT A PERSON TO STILL SMILE OR NOT FEEL SAD WHEN SOMEONE HE LIKES PASSED AWAY?! ARE YOU AN IDIOT, JING YI???"
There's nothing that can cheer him up now (He told me so). I understand that too. It takes time for a wound to heal. Time is the best medicine. Also at this point of time, I should and have to be stronger so that I can take care of him, support him, help him and  accompany him to pull through this period. Jing yi, you can do it.

Rest in peace, Nigel. You will always be remembered.