Survived two days of work, today's the first time since i work (in this vacation) that i got 0 appointment. omg. Chose my next semester's timetable with shihui and michelle at michelle's house. Thought our hearts were about to explode! Fortunately all of us got into the same class, i super need them to help me pull up my gpa :( #mustworkhard Bus-ed home after that. Just done packing for my camp tmr, such a chore. Not really looking forward though. No doubt that I love camps and chalets but the only thing i dislike is the packing part LOL. and the dirty clothes and lingeries..... :/ I'm looking forward to sleeping at the loft :) Hope they would let us sleep early, probably is a good chance for me to rest well hahaha. How funny, going to a camp and expect to have a good rest. Sigh. Sometimes I really wonder why i tend to think so much, or too much. It's not like i want to but i just cant control. This is also affecting me and people around me, negatively duh. Since i cant control myself to not think, i thought the best way is to just keep quiet. But, I wonder how long and how much i can take. I might just suffocate and die ._. Not like i never had that feeling before. The feeling is just so terrible... And the last resort is just to cry. To some people, they might think crying is for those useless or weak people. However, in my opinion, crying means that you're brave enough to express yourself, to let out all your sorrows and troubles (i admit it's only temporary though) but at least i think it makes me feel better. I cry, I get tired, I sleep. But at some points, what i need is really just a hug or some words that can make me feel more secured, even if people just say for the sake of saying. I'm a weird person :) Kay, needa wake up early tomorrow! Nights.
我好像真的被吓到了
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